The Change-Up (Or Where The Hell Has Hollie Been?)

First of all, I owe you a small apology.

While I would hate to think that this blog has fallen to the wayside, this blog has at least…crept to the wayside. It’s been meandering there each day I decide to do something else other than write a blog post, as if writing something would be too damn hard on myself.

These last few weeks have been a very different and difficult situation. To be a bit personal, I am going through some mental instability and is resulting in lack of focus, concentration, and motivation – a deadly mix.

It means I struggle to read, watch things, write, and even work. It means that I’m overeating, eating the wrong things, and often myself not even bothering to get out of bed when I don’t have anywhere to go.

It’s pretty bad.

But today, on the 30th September 2016, I made a change. I started a new chapter in my life, as today is the day I handed in my notice. It was sad, because I love everyone there, but I had fulfilled my position and could get no more out of it, and the monotony and stresses of retail were making me feel worse; it’s time to shake things up. I currently have no other job lined up, finding myself unprepared and inexperienced, and have decided to work on myself and looking after my mental and physical health until the new year.

I want 2017 to be full of opportunities and new experiences, and that can only happen if I am mentally prepared. I don’t want to push myself into anything that will make what’s going on with me worse. In the words of my boss, I have to be selfish, I have to focus on me for a while.

I am very fortunate to be in a situation where I can not work for a few months and still be financially stable. I have savings, and I still live at home (and it’s the first time I’m grateful to be still living with my parents). I understand that not many have that privilege, and so I want to take full advantage of it before I eventually move out and swim in the adult lane.

From now on, you’re going to start seeing a lot more content, be it on my blog or my Instagram. I’m going to be more reachable, more in touch, and, hopefully, happier.

And for the first time in two years, I’m actually going to be able to celebrate a stress-free Christmas. I’m still letting that sink in.

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  1. needforcaffeine

    October 1, 2016 at 11:48 am

    Aw hun, I am sending all my love (And also I feel you intensely – my blog fell off the face of the earth whilst I was mentally not great) xx

    1. hollie (hollieblog)

      October 1, 2016 at 11:50 am

      Thankyou! 😙 I’m finding it really hard to do anything atm but hopefully gaining more time will help me start getting motivated again!

  2. hiraethforthepages

    October 1, 2016 at 1:36 pm

    I’m sorry that everything has been hard for you lately but I’m so glad that you’re taking this step and making a change for yourself! If you need to take any more time off, we all completely understand <3 I hope everything goes well for you from here on out and wishing you the best days and stress-free Christmas! 🙂

  3. thelittlebookowl

    October 1, 2016 at 3:22 pm

    Sorry that you are struggling! I’m in a similar position! I have been really struggling so I am still at home and not working until I feel better in myself! I feel lucky that I am able to do that! Sending a virtual hug! I hope you feel better soon!

    1. hollie (hollieblog)

      October 1, 2016 at 4:07 pm

      Sending hugs right back! And thankyou! <3

  4. Madeline @ The SFF Bookshelf

    October 1, 2016 at 11:18 pm

    It is so important to focus on yourself, and whilst you have the means to be able to do that you should 100% take advantage of that. Also, you get an awesome and stress-free Christmas, that’s incredible! Working in retail SUCKS at Christmas time. This is my third Christmas in retail this year and I’m already dreading the awful Christmas music and complaining customers. Continue to look after yourself, hun! That’s so very important 🙂

  5. Lauren @ Wonderless Reviews

    October 6, 2016 at 5:45 am

    Love this, Hollie! Taking care of yourself and putting your own mental health first is so important. I think a lot of people forget because you can’t always see the effect it has, but every doctor and psychologist I’ve seen has said it’s just as – if not more – important as taking care of our physical health. It can be really hard to do though so you should be super proud of yourself ♥♥ Thank you for sharing this post too because it’s definitely reminded me that I nee to focus on myself for a while because I’ve been pretty bad at it lately. I’m really happy you’ll be having a stress free Christmas this year.

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