First of all, I owe you a small apology.
While I would hate to think that this blog has fallen to the wayside, this blog has at least…crept to the wayside. It’s been meandering there each day I decide to do something else other than write a blog post, as if writing something would be too damn hard on myself.
These last few weeks have been a very different and difficult situation. To be a bit personal, I am going through some mental instability and is resulting in lack of focus, concentration, and motivation – a deadly mix.
It means I struggle to read, watch things, write, and even work. It means that I’m overeating, eating the wrong things, and often myself not even bothering to get out of bed when I don’t have anywhere to go.
It’s pretty bad.
But today, on the 30th September 2016, I made a change. I started a new chapter in my life, as today is the day I handed in my notice. It was sad, because I love everyone there, but I had fulfilled my position and could get no more out of it, and the monotony and stresses of retail were making me feel worse; it’s time to shake things up. I currently have no other job lined up, finding myself unprepared and inexperienced, and have decided to work on myself and looking after my mental and physical health until the new year.
I want 2017 to be full of opportunities and new experiences, and that can only happen if I am mentally prepared. I don’t want to push myself into anything that will make what’s going on with me worse. In the words of my boss, I have to be selfish, I have to focus on me for a while.
I am very fortunate to be in a situation where I can not work for a few months and still be financially stable. I have savings, and I still live at home (and it’s the first time I’m grateful to be still living with my parents). I understand that not many have that privilege, and so I want to take full advantage of it before I eventually move out and swim in the adult lane.
From now on, you’re going to start seeing a lot more content, be it on my blog or my Instagram. I’m going to be more reachable, more in touch, and, hopefully, happier.
And for the first time in two years, I’m actually going to be able to celebrate a stress-free Christmas. I’m still letting that sink in.